Man-Size (man_size) wrote,

7 into 6

It's become too exhausting and less rewarding pimping other people's work. Especially when the reciprocation is rare, if not nil. I've finally started to recognize the wisdom of people close to me advising that I spend less time helping other people and focus more on helping myself. I will always and forever champion community and I can't help my innately altruistic behavior, but I'm near 46-years old with no health insurance, working 7-days a week, eating way too many peanut butter sandwiches and a month away from living on the street because the industry I chose to make hay in pushes me to work three times harder for payment that hasn't increased in six years while prices inflate and bills loom [I'm currently typing this on a beautiful sunny Saturday while inside the tomb of my cement studio with the view of brick warehouse under an elevated train station through a chain linked window while people experience something called "brunch" a couple of blocks away from me]. Not to sound bleak [nobody put a gun to my head and forced me to make comix], but I can't continue to lead if I don't take care of myself. I would be doing a disservice to the proverbial plates I seem to spin on a daily basis. When I'm in healthier mental and physical shape, I will reconsider breaking new ground but, for the meantime, I need to retreat and heal and pray I can turn seven working days into six.

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